I didn't know my cousin Sarah was sick, another auto-immune disease. So now I'm completely blindsided and shocked and heartsick to find out that she died last night.
She'd been a silent reader of the blog. I was hopeful that she'd be able to come and visit sometime, I've missed her since we moved away from Maryland. Having her and Aunt Erin around when Mom died and the kids were born was very important to me, and helped so much when most of my family was too far away.
And now I'm soooo sad that I'm not in Maryland, because I want to comfort my Aunt in person, to be there for her as she was there for me. Because as if this wasn't horrible enough, my Uncle Richard died just last month. I didn't get down for his funeral, but Dan and I are trying very hard to make arrangements to go down for Sarah's.
Can I tell you how much I want to scream swear words into the night.